Shine's Diary Haunted Curiosities

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TUESDAY 25 NOVEMBER 2008

Dee Dee has given me some feedback on these diaries. I find that you are right and that to ignore Martin is the right thing to do. Martin is older then I but he acts with the maturity of a child.I don't want to linger on the subject of Martin. I will post my diary here for you to better understand me.I have done alot this week. I went on an investigation with Dee Dee to Lions and Lambs. I dreamed of a woman that I need to make things right with. There was a lack of communication. I will not mentionm this again. I will be emailing and next week calling.The investigation went not well. What we found was so deep in the magic of the occult that those participating can't have souls. As a Geryon I know they are worse off then I. I have found the light that was taken from me and for this I'm glad.I still have things I need to work on so that I can better blend with my human companions. I no longer look at them as cattle. I can not change the way Martin feels, but that is him. I do not believe in playing around with people but I still have some things I need to change. One thing is in our race we are connected to each other. If one Geryon feels a thirst for lifes essence then I do as well. There is nothing I can do to change this part of me.I often feel that wilding come on and I think of the woman that I am interested in. I must try to get this under control. If I can not then I can not be with a human woman. I can't be like most Geryon. I have found a way to heal my soul and it is what I wish to do.Many Geryon are not happy with the condition of the lack of soul. What happens as time goes on is they become more of what they did not want to be. I for some reason did not. I had my time of killing,blood lust which is not what you think it is.We have the ability to heal ourselves and we have extreme nerve endings. Which is a contradiction in a human body. We have sex and do it with other Geryon but it doesn't give us that feeling of being alive.I do not want to talk about this stuff on the radio. I can type it and not have to see the reactions of people.I would often have sex with humans because of how it felt. You have orgasm,we have a full body orgasm that is nothing like you have felt. When this happens the human is often killed. This is the wilding. If they are not killed there is an exchange of blood because it causes an energy flow that you can see.I wish to try and fix this. The woman I have an interest in has a voice that vibrates my every fiber. I fear that I could hurt her.I'm going today to see a Zas which is an ancient Egyptian sorcerer. They are also another race of what you would call vampire. I hope to fix this situation.